Sep 202012

Your hair has been his leash longer and more often than any combination of metal and leather.

Ropes leave those wonderfully symmetrical marks, but his hands bruise you for days.

You’ve never had a toy that can make a fist to clench in your hair, or close around your throat.  He can grab a handful of ass. Manhandling what’s his.

You’ve always loved those cuffs. You took the time to pick out just the right pair. They’ve been collecting dust because his body holds you in place.

Feel free to struggle.

You’re still not going anywhere.

Sep 192012

This was her punishment. Fear and anxiety bundled her nerves. Together they crawled from deep in her belly to the bottom of her throat. This was the first time. Following …what she thought were his..  directions, she would just lightly place herself over him. She wasn’t sure how this was going to go. She thought this would be fine. In hindsight, he obviously enjoyed her naivety. That embarrassed her. It was part of her lesson.

He was quick, snatching her into a more off-balanced version. Off balanced for her. Perfectly balanced for him. His weight easily pinned her. Her arm was twisted and her wrist pinned to her back, causing her an instant amount of sharp pain that shot to her shoulder. That pain would have left her in shock had it not been followed by the intensity of the first blow. It sent a blast of ache through her body. Each strike shocked her as much as the last. She never had a moment to process before the next one.

It’s shaking me.

He’s shaking my world.


She didn’t know how right she was.

There’s nothing to hold on to. He’s holding onto me.

The solid handling of her and the continued precise placements made the pain radiate. She was learning her lesson as the world continued to shake.

Sep 182012

The Sasha Grey Signature Swell Wand  is a versatile double ended dildo that has the ability to entertain those who are new to glass as well as sex toys in general. The black glass makes this piece a toy that can also become a collector’s ‘must have.’ Much like Sasha herself, this toy is far from ostentatious. Labeled as “the girl next door,” Sasha’s ability to blend in and be unassuming is mimicked in the Swell Wand’s discreet appearance.

Because the Swell Wand increases gently in size, it would make a nice toy for those interested in trying out glass for the first time. Considering that it’s dual-sided, those who prefer the “popping” sensation inside their vagina and against their G-spot would enjoy the larger, fuller side. Those not yet familiar with that feeling could begin experimenting with the smaller side, as well as have a toy that could grow with them.

The Swell Wand is about eight inches in length. Although there is no flared base, as long as you’re using the bigger end as a base, are very careful not to get the toy too slippery and let your ass eat the entire eight inches, it should be fine for regular anal play. Although it’s non-porous, remember to use a condom if sharing with a partner.

You’re going to get some great benefits from the material that the Sasha Grey Signature Swell Wand is made from. Pyrex glass is a hypoallergenic, non-porous, latex and phthalates free, food-grade material. Pyrex is also very renitent.  Although your toy is still glass, it’s not the same kind that you’re going to find in your Grandmother’s curio cabinet. Pyrex is more resistant to shattering. However, that doesn’t mean that it won’t. If you drop your pyrex toy and it does break, expect it to snap into large pieces. It won’t splinter into tiny shards, and you won’t be picking pieces of your dildo out of your bare feet. You do want to thoroughly check your pyrex toy for cracks or chips before you begin to play with it.

Another nice attribute of pyrex is the variety you get when it comes to lubrication. Silicone, water, and oil based lubes are all compatible with pyrex toys, so use your favorite. However, take into consideration that when it comes to using lube in conjunction with pyrex toys, you usually don’t need as much as you might think. Start off with a lesser amount than usual so that you don’t end up with a toy that’s way too slippery to enjoy.

If you prefer, the Swell Wand offers you the option of temperature play. Other than dropping your glass toy, extreme temperature change is the main reason that your glass toy will crack or break.  If you want to warm it up or cool it down, put your pyrex toy in a bowl of warm or cool water and let it sit. Once you’ve removed the toy and you’re ready to play, set the toy against the inside of your wrist to test its temperature. If it’s too intense for you it could do damage to sensitive body parts such as the genitals.

The Sasha Grey Signature Swell Wand is smooth and inflexible. Glass doesn’t bend. Steer clear of intense thrusting that could damage the cervix. There is also no texture or grab to it. Weighing in at 13.5oz., it’s heavier than the Wave Wand and the Classic (I’m not sure about the Icicles No. 8, as there’s no weight listed for it) – all which have very similar designs to the Swell Wand.

Named appropriately, The Swell Wand is an atypically shaped dildo. Its shape does slightly balloon or swell as you travel down the shaft. At the smaller end of the toy there’s a globular, round head with a circumference of almost four inches. It then shrinks down to a neck with a circumference that’s a little less than three inches before progressing into a wave that peeks at just above the four inch mark. The Swell Wand dips down again in circumference to exactly three inches, then balloons to four and a half inches, shrinks for the last time to a neck with a circumference of three inches before reaching its rounded end that has a circumference of a full five inches.

The Swell Wand that I received was in excellent condition. While I wasn’t able to find any design flaws while feeling the toy with my hands or body, I found it a bit unsettling that I couldn’t see inside the toy. Yes, the black is beautiful, unique, and a little intense, but when I’m looking for cracks, I need to see inside my toy. Maybe Doc Johnson could have gone with a more opaque version?

Cleaning and maintaining your Pyrex toy is fairly simple. You’ve got options. Antibacterial soap and water is a quick and easy option. Toy wipes or your favorite toy cleaner is acceptable as well. Put it in your dishwasher! (top rack – no dishes!) Boil it, but a good idea would be to put a small washcloth between the pot and the glass toy so that the glass doesn’t come in direct contact with the metal. Bleach it! Use a 10% bleach solution. Just remember that regardless what type of cleaning method that you use, rinse your toy really well before using it so that you don’t set your sensitive parts on fire.

Doc Johnson packed the Swell Wand tightly inside a sleek, black, cardboard box with a picture of the product on the front and a picture of Sasha Grey on both sides. It’s more like a like shadowy figure since the box is so dark, and although she’s dressed in her bra and panties, she’s not doing the nasty. The box has all the social media outlets for Doc Johnson: Twitter, Facebook, and Myspace. Is anyone still on Myspace? Unfortunately, there’s no bag to store the Swell Wand in and the box is best for recycling.

The Husband and I have used the Swell Wand in a few different and very orgasmic ways. I’m no stranger to glass and neither is he when it comes to my body and what it responds to. Because there’s no curve to this toy, I found it a bit more difficult to use it solo than some of my other toys. Not impossible, but I just didn’t prefer it. However, The Husband and have enjoyed it immensely as a couples toy!

He has penetrated me anally with the smaller ball while his tongue licked and sucked at my clit. I had an orgasm while I begged him to take it out and begged him to push it farther in at the same time. It was … wonderful torture!

I had a similar experience when he used the bigger ball to tease against and milk my G-spot until I squirted. He ran the Swell Wand over my G-spot, back and forth, popping it in and out of me until he had to hold me down to keep me from humping the toy!

Although The Husband and I do watch porn together from time to time, we usually go for a certain theme.  We’ve never been a huge fan of Sasha’s, but after using the Swell Wand, I feel as if she and I have become much closer.

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Sep 182012

“Spread your legs. ”

Her mind went blank, having been wiped clean from the dictation she’d been taking. Part of her was expecting something like this from him. Part of her was not.

She bumped her glasses up to keep them from slipping down her nose. It was a habit, and she did it whether they were slipping or not. He’d seen her start to do it even when she had her contacts in. He knew and enjoyed knowing some of her idiosyncrasies and tells. It excited him.

His words hung in the air. This was a big decision. His eyes never moved from her. The silence seemed like an eternity – for both of them.

She was being called out. By Him. Now.

He had made his decision. It was official. Their relationship as employer and employee was no longer as high on his list of priorities as his desire for her over his knee. On his desk. In his bed. The boundary that they had both silently set was broken.

She’d fucked herself to the thought of this moment. This, between them, was …different.

Do it.    Say you’ll do it.   Coward.    


Just. Breathe.


Oh God.

She parted her knees.

“Yes, Sir.”

Sep 172012

I went on a date with a friend who had a small blue knife. He knew I liked knife play. I said that I liked knife play. What we both meant by knife play is that he would hold a knife to my throat and rape me. He wouldn’t have sex with me. He would be violent. He said that it would change me.

We sat in his car for a moment, gently flirting with the possibilities. He threatened to take me into the ally. I threatened to like it. I knew that it would have changed me. I wanted it to.

It would have changed him, too. He was scared of just how much.

Sep 152012

I used to be embarrassed about drooling. Regardless of what headspace I was in, as soon as I felt that string of saliva pool right under my bottom lip, I would begin to focus on curling it upwards. I was trying to control the inevitable strand that would spill over, slowly drip, and land haphazardly on the sheets or do a hit and run off my tits.

I knew that it would catch him by surprise, this nastiness oozing from my gaping mouth, involuntarily wetting my body. I know he saw it in the mirror; when he pulled my hair back; while he was fucking me. It was embarrassing. Please don’t let him notice.

I never said anything. I didn’t want to draw attention to it.

One night I was lost. It was different. New. Stronger. More of an Experience. Every touch and every word resonated off of every sting. Every sting made love to each command. Every strike was met with me wanting more. My energy fed off his. His energy fed off mine. His hands were roughly on my face and tangled in my hair.

His words ringing in my ears. “Drool for me, girl.”

And without hesitation, fear or insecurities – I did.

I wanted to.